i think

Today, I realized how desperately I need to stop competing with the guy I love. I’m lucky to have him feel the same way for me, but I was stubborn. We definitely have been struggling, and I know I’ve been trying to talk to you. But I need to stop thinking that “I’m trying harder than he is.” It’s as if I’ve turned us into some competition. For awhile, I sort of gave up - I stopped trying to talk to him, and just waited for him to do something because I was tired of constantly being the one to initiate things. But then I realized, hey. If I love this guy, why should I ever be tired of trying to talk to him? I should be happy. I shouldn’t stop. I should persevere, and keep going. Why? Because I love him. It’s just not worth throwing away to my stubbornness. Admittedly, I wish he’d pursue me a bit harder, but it’s okay. I love him, and that’s all that matters. Nothing else matters. It’s not a competition. We’re both winning, anyway.

okay, i know ull read this, hey hello ? you know my url dude, thanks for make me smile again.

i cant stop smiling, tonight. :)

alhamdulillah, :)