i miss you.

Today I thought about you again. It shouldn’t be a surprise at all. I always think about you. I don’t mean to and I try my best not to, but the thought of you pops up more often than anything else on my mind. I miss you.

I know it’s over, and has been over for quite sometime, but I yet hold on to some little glimpse of hope that you and I could work things out, come to a compromise that satisfies us both, come to a conclusion of sorts that I want to see. Selfish? Perhaps a bit, but more than anything I want you to look this this direction again and look at the face that has been in your life for 1 year and 4 months. I want to see the smiley face you drew and not feel the emptiness you left inside of me as you said to not make contact with you or to not talk with you. and not think about how you walked out so quickly, without second thought, or a second chance for me. I want to see you, and only you, I want my touch to not create shivers of any kind and to heal whatever wounded you…me…us. I want you to love me like you once did and I want you to hold me like you once did. I want so much to be with you, and I want so much for things to heal. I feel redundant but that’s what it is. I want you.
you and only you… please? I still love you…