im done, right ?

Today i realized that this has to stop.

I know its not right to keep you from being happy.
In fact, ive always wanted you to be happy. Even in my dispense, all i ever wanted is to keep that smile on your face. Thats why i was always there for you. Even if you kept me up in the middle of the night ranting abou your ex-girlfriend and how stupid she is for letting you go. I was there. I never complained. Even when you had the worst mood swings, you kept pushing me away. You kept giving off signals telling me to get lost.

But did i leave ?
Did i get lost just as you told me to ?
Did i give up on you ? No.

No, i didnt. Because i wanted to remind you that you're not alone, you'd always have us. You will always have me. And because you were my friend - more even, and i cared more than i should.

But you never saw that. Not even once.

So now, i think this has to stop. I have to be over this. Over you.
I am done believing your false hope. I am done with pretending.

we can still be friends.